No matter how deep you seem to have buried it, it's still there. Ready to rear its ugly head up at every crack in your control that it finds.
Perhaps one of the worst for me is the death of wonder. That one day we see something like this and just rush on, not taking time to stop for a moment and appreciate the small pockets of beauty. Pause. Take a breath. The busy life will still be a busy life when you're done.
Humans are neither truly good nor truly evil, but are many different combinations of both.
You weren't rubbish, but you weren't all that great, either. It's the year of missed chances and horrible timing, of making mistakes and believing in the wrong people, of second-guessing, of rude awakenings, of remnant heartaches, of new heartaches, and of wavering faith. But it's also the year when one in my circle married the … Continue reading Goodbye 2016, you hideous bitch goddess you
It was summer. It was fun. And for the first time after a long while I started feeling right again. Not like before, no. But not too wrong either.
Month one of 2016 saw me on a weekend trip up North with my STORM loves. Good thing about this? I didn't have to do/plan anything. I just paid my share of the expenses and showed up on time.
Best thing about this? I got to spend a weekend with some of the funnest, funniest, craziest people I got the privilege of knowing.
To satisfy the need to escape and to avoid recurrence of emotional, uhm, episodes, I have decided to go somewhere or do something (an activity of some sort I wouldn't often do) every month of this year.
Just when everything seems to be making sense, just when my life seems to be going along a great track, my heart l told me to go the opposite direction and I did the most human thing in the world. Overthink. For months.
"As if you do not care whether your heart will melt or crumble in the process because your brief courage undoes your tremendous fear of disbelief."
Apart from the odd existential crisis moments, I actually like getting old. It makes me feel that I'm doing life correctly because I haven't died an embarrassing death.